Thanks to a couple of good friends (Bro. Tom and Jonathan), I have started to look at the incredible things in life I have, but don’t deserve, as opposed to things I feel I deserve but don’t have. You know I got so caught up in what I want and felt deserving of; I neglected to see the things I have, but am very undeserving of. You know, I have a LOVING CHURCH FAMILY, people that I have wronged to the fullest degree, yet am deeply loved, a love I can’t quite understand, but am very grateful for. A PASTOR, one that took the time to reach me, when the last thing I wanted was to be reached. I would purposely leave just to avoid him, and what did he do, kept after me, now I know it was the Lord that laid it on his heart, but yet a chasing I can’t quite understand and am deeply grateful for. MY FAMILY, WOW what can I say about them, my family should’ve turned their back on me years ago, because I’ll be the first to tell you, I had turned my back on them. But yet they loved me, unconditionally, again a love I do not understand. TOMORROW, not tomorrow in general, but all the tomorrows I’ve had, because once upon a time, I didn’t want today, and I’m very undeserving of the tomorrows I’ve been given. MY GIRLFRIEND, I have the most incredible, understanding, amazingly beautiful Christian girlfriend there is, sorry guys its true. I honestly don’t think there is a guy anywhere that deserves the girlfriend I have, yet she’s mine, a blessing I’ll never understand. Now, I say I don’t understand all these things, and I truly don’t, but I do know where they came from, they came from GOD, and neither you nor I will ever understand Him. You can try, I know that I have and that was wrong of me. But guess what He forgives me, a forgiveness I’ll never understand. I thank GOD for all that He has given me, and all that He will continue to give me, if all He ever gives me is tomorrow, I’m thankful. Once again, thanks for your time.
I UNDERSTAND
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You are a deluded fool with you reliance on this god thing.
Become self-reliant , or reliant on other human beings , not a mythical being.
Organised religion is evil and the sooner it is destroyed the better.
I’m good thanks anyways…
Glad you’re good, but I’m sure you could be without this god thing.
Just because you had problems before you ‘found god’ , doesn’t mean that god has been the cause of you now being much happier.
Human support has obviously helped, but a person in the situation you were in ‘before’ , would have had the same result . (as I have) , from the support of non-religious people.
A final thought – even if this god thing was real – and I say this hypothetically , for the sake of argument ,( I am as confident in my disbelief , as you appear to be in your belief ); I would say OK god exists but that doesn’t mean I would or SHOULD worship it.
All the best anyway !!
Good post, Shaun. You need to break this out every time the disappointments of this life get you down. And keep up the good work on this blog, we need Christians who are open and honest enought to share their personal story.
As always, praying for you man.
Yes Shaun churches do work as social clubs. Mutual aid and support is always good but it depends on you because Tom’s prayers don’t really work.
If Tom’s prayers did work that would be unfair on everybody else.