ME ON TRIAL

“ANSWER THE PHONE”

meontrial — Sat, 26 Dec 2009 03:19:04 +0000

The average household receives 4 to 7 phone calls a day, luckily due to the progression in electronics, we have this little box, better known as caller id. We don’t have to answer, and we know who it is we aren’t answering too. So think for a minute, what are some of the reasons you wouldn’t answer the phone, well there’s not really a whole lot of choices to choose from, you either don’t like the person that is calling, or could just care less on what it is they have to say… But you see God also calls, and just like those little boxes, His calls come equipped with caller I.D. Does that mean the next time your phone rings, it might say God on it, NO, what it means is when God calls your heart, no matter what the call is about, you know exactly who it’s from. My question to you is, do you answer, or do u just simply look at the caller I.d. and ignore it?

Hopefully you answer, because if you ignore it long enough, God will quit calling and simply bring you to Him. You see, God has called me many times, wether it be for simple repentance, or to publicly ask for forgiveness, or a call to the ministry. I’ll be the first to tell you, I’ve ignored that call on more then one occasion. But God’s persistence and His chastisement has found me time and time again, and it too shall find you… You see God’s will, will be done in your life, reguardless of wether or not you answer to His call. So despite what the atheists might say, (God doesn’t have a phone, there is no God), honestly your opinion means absoutely nothing to me or this website, and your words will be a waste of time.

Theres been times when I’ve ignored God, for the simple fact, it wasn’t the life that allured me. I’ve ignored Him, due to the reality I’m human, which means I’m a failure, and I honestly just thought I wasn’t capable of handling His call. What I neglected to see is, God doesn’t call you to what you can’t handle, and when God’s on your side, you can handle any and all things. What I’ve come to learn is, failure isn’t being defeated, failure is not trying, failure is quitting.

But as for today, I earnestly pray that God gives me the strength and the desire to answer the call He has placed before me. God has pulled me through the toughest storms, tougher then most middle aged people have gone through and I can truly say, I know the reason for the storm; and just as God pulled me through the storm, I pray He gives me the strength and the wisdom, and that I draw close enough to God that through Him and with His guidance, He will use me to help someone through their storms. Not because I want to be praised for helping someone, but I know if I’m being used by God, I’m right where I need to be.

“A man that chooses not to do the little tasks, cannot be trusted to do the big tasks.” Meaning, if a man chooses not to be a servant for the Lord, chooses not to live the christian lifestyle, he can’t be trusted to be used by God.

Dear Lord this is my prayer to you, I ask you to forgive me of all my sins, also asking to forgive me of the sins I’ve yet to commit. Dear Lord, give me strength for I am weak, give me wisdom for I am dumb, give me eyes for I am blind and give me ears for I am deaf. I ask of you Lord, caress the cold taverns of my heart, with the warmth of your hands, give me remorse for the things I’ve done and give me the desire to make them right. I ask that you keep me in good spirits Lord, as I pay for my mistakes. I ask that you encourage me, as the devil discourages me. I also ask that you give me your mouth, for your mouth will not lie, your mouth will not speak in hate, but only out of love, and kindness. One last thing, I ask that you remind me where I’ve been as your guiding me to where I want to be. I give you praise Lord, for all the good things I’ve done, and have, while humbly taking responsiblity for all the evil things. I thank your for dying on the cross for a wicked sinner such as myself. AMEN…

WHAT ARE YOU THANKFUL FOR???

meontrial — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 07:27:23 +0000

Well everyone, Thanksgiving has come and I believe Thanksgiving is a time to give thanks for all that you have. So at the end of this blog, leave responses telling everyone what all you have to be thankful for. THX

Well, I’ll start by saying, I wont keep you here all day reading this although I could and still not run out of things to be thankful for… But I’ll start with my blood family, I was given the opportunity to have been raised in a scriptually sound church. Although it seemed like at times, I was being drug by my Mom, I’m thankful had a Mom with enough courage, and one that cared enough about me to drag me to church for no other reason then that is where I was supposed to be. I’m thankful to have a brother and a sister in law, in which I’ve been blessed enough to watch them grow in their desire to serve the Lord. I’m thankful for that same brother and sister who unknowingly set an example for me, on how a relationship and a marriage should be, which is serving the Lord, not saying I at all times follow that example, but God has blessed me in having the two of them in my life. My mamal, my father, that same brother, sister, mamal, everyone that I’ve wronged, that still so deeply and unconditionally love me, when at time I don’t love myself for what I did.

I’m thankful for a Church family, and a loving Pastor, that choose not to set aside their beliefs to better the population in the church, but instead continue to preach the truth, to better the population in Heaven. That same Pastor, who’s relentlesness to help me, when at times, I might have well spit in his face, he’s never stopped being a brother in christ to me.

I’m thankful for the undeserving roof I have over my head, I can still remember many a nites i cuddled up, under the shelter of a park slide during a hard rain, many a nites, i slept in a uhaul being bit by rats, the truth can be hard. But this underserving roof, and the heat that blows through the four corners of my room is more then enough to be thankful for.

I’m thankful for the experiences I’m now going through, with my girlfriend and her family. I’ve been lucky enough to get along with the girls i’ve dated, much less their families as well. But I’m thankful I now have the opportunity to know what that feels like, not even saying I deserve it. Their only knowledge of me upon meeting their daughter, was that I was a lying, drug addict, that should be in jail, and it was the truth. I know that trying to get used to the idea of a guy with my past dating a girl as perfect as their daughter, isn’t easy, I can’t say that I would give it a shot, if I were in their place. But the warmth and hospitality they’ve showed me recently, is a feeling most irreplacable. To know that I could one day be apart of that family, and we could share in our love for God, is one blessing I truly do not deserve, but I’m thankful that God doesn’t give people what they deserve.

Most importantly I’m thankful for an almighty God, one that had the power to deliver me out of a world of wickedness, out of a life of drugs. Not saying I don’t struggle, cuz I do, I struggle, I fall, I fail and I sin, and my God forgives me everytime. I’m thankful for the knowledge in Christ to know that I can put my trust in Him, I’m also thankful for my knowledge in myself and knowing I can’t trust myself. I have yet a long ways to go, and to those of you that know me, I know your praying for me, and I am gratefully thankful for that.

YOUR TURN!!!

MY PRAYER

meontrial — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 01:07:09 +0000

know matter how hard, I do seem to try,
I get left with the answers, that leave me wand’ring why.
but I know it’s all, just apart of your plan,
no matter what happens, behind you i’ll stand.
I pray you be my umbrella, as I walk thru this rain,
and that you keep your arms around me Lord, until I feel no pain.
I know i’ve been slipping Lord, back into my ways,
but here I come again Lord, please guide me thru lifes maze.
I can’t always see, exactly where i’m going,
because I take my eyes off of you Lord, suddenly i’m the all knowing.
I ask that you keep me, out of the way of me,
I ask that you give me your eyes, so thru your eyes I may see.
a little bit selfish, I guess it may be,
but as for today Lord, I ask of prayers for me.
These are my prayers Lord, I place them on heaven’s mantle,
not for my will Lord, but that your’s I can handle.

WHO ARE YOU REALLY?

meontrial — Fri, 11 Sep 2009 02:12:14 +0000

I’ve been taking a mental survey over the past few weeks, and my basis for my survey was everyday sin, and why it’s accepting to people, what I came to find out, it’s even accepting to a lot of Christians, I wish I could say I was excluded from this group, but unfortunately I’m not. Now, before I start turning heads, not all of these things have I actively involved myself with, or even been entertaining, but the survey shows, most do. Also, I’m not naming names, might not even be talking about you, but if you get offended, your probably one of them. So, as you read each of these world accepting sins, ask yourself, is this me? If so, why do I involve myself in this, and what good could possibly come out of it? So let’s quit sugar coating how this world really is, let’s quit being naive on what really goes on in this world.

SEX AND PROMISCOUS DRESSING:

SEX:

This world has become so loose with the idea of when and with whom sex should take place. Sex was intended for husband and wife, on their honeymoon, did you hear the first part, sorry, a guy can not be a wife; sex is for man and woman, that’s it. Up until recent years, I don’t even remember homosexuality being a minority, now they run around in packs, and no, God didn’t make you gay, God doesn’t lead people into sin. God did give you a brain to make decisions on your own, which I’m beginning to realize was a gift; we honestly don’t know how to use. Secondly, it’s a rarity to find a girl over the age of 15 that is still a virgin, no matter how you look at it, that’s sad. I’m talking to myself as well, I’m not a virgin, and personally this topic, didn’t mean a whole lot to me until recently. For me growing up a virgin wasn’t respected actually it was ridiculed, therefore it wasn’t all that special to me. But now that I’ve found someone that I truly feel like is real love, now that it’s too late, I understand the importance of it, I understand that if this is who the Lord has for me, as much as I can and would give her anything, I can never give her the one thing, she can give me, that truly is heart breaking.

PROMISCOUS DRESSING:

You ever watch a hose race; notice how the horse has blinders on it, so it’s not distracted by the surrounding horses. That’s how I feel any time I’m in public anymore, I can’t enter Wal-Mart without my spiritual blinders on. Seems no matter where you go, there’s some girl, more then one usually, with short shorts, breasts hanging out, and the worse part is, the last thing you look at is her face, and when you do, you realize she’s only 15 years old, you find yourself wondering where her mom is. Then five minutes later, she’s with her mom, who is dressed the same way, and you start to understand she never had a chance, the young girl that is. You know I heard a comedian say that he seen this girl dressed provocatively, short shorts, thongs showing through, belly shirt with breasts hanging out, so he walked up to her, and asked “how much”, and wasn’t that surprised when the girl got offended, responding “I’m not a prostitute”. He then went on to say, “if I were wearing a full police uniform, and someone ran up on you and stole your purse, would you not come up to me seeking help, but ma’am I’m not an officer”, far fetched kind of, but the truth revealed in that, is substantiating.

MOVIES, TV AND MUSIC

No need to categorize these, their all the same. Now, I’m not saying television is bad, or music or movies, not all at least. But there are the ones you know are not beneficial to you. I personally, don’t even watch television anymore, with the exception of some sports, and the reason being, it all takes you back to the first topic, sex. I’ve recently seen commercials advertising, and this isn’t a joke, the website it was advertising was one-nite-booty-call.com, I’ve also seen commercials that advertise ways to discreetly cheat on your spouse. Crazy right, why can’t we just openly cheat on our spouse, (sarcasm)? But that is just what we need isn’t it, as if enough commercials don’t use sex to sell. Why not sell sex? You see, I didn’t quit watching television because I don’t like seeing a girl half naked, what guy doesn’t and if you say you don’t, you’re a liar. I quit watching them because I do, and it’s a sin, one I won’t be tempted by. You see what I’ve come to learn is the devil will temp you in all kinds of ways, so why would I knowingly tempt myself, just doesn’t make a whole lot of sense to me. Also, not everything involves sex; you have your people who outwardly represent drugs, and vulgar language (most comedians). You also have your shows that outwardly express crime as being a good thing, my point is most of you reading this, wouldn’t allow me in your homes, yet you’ll financially support the wickedness on television, and by watching them you are financially supporting them. Or you’ll watch the wickedness on HBO, better known as Hell’s Box Office. Then there’s the topic of Music, to Christians, because others just don’t care, Miley Cyrus, not good, others like it, not good, don’t take it from me, take it from the Bible, which says any music not uplifting and glorifying to God, not good.

INTERNET:

Where to even start, pornography, atheists, chat rooms, sites promoting murder and death, I could seriously never stop on this one. Pornography, not that you even go to porn sites, but their ads are on about 80 percent of every site you go to. Try facebook, every time I’m on facebook, there’s a half naked girl at the top. Let’s talk about facebook for a sec, I see parents creating facebook for their 12 and 13 year old daughters or sons, which isn’t bad if you take the time to fully patrol it. But there is a reason you have to lie about your kid’s age so they can have it, because you have to be at least 14 to have a facebook, which in my opinion is still too young. But off the topic of sex, I recently went to a chat room for one sole purpose, this blog. I heard conversations, and topics that would make the devil blush, people talking about raping people, and every other word was cussing, and sex, and sexually cussing, you get my point. You see there is a reason people go to chat rooms, and contrary to what you think, it isn’t because they can be whoever they want to be, it’s because they can be who they are, without anyone knowing who they are. But to put it delicately, I didn’t last to long in the chat room, I’d have to say God told me to get out, pretty quickly.

WHO YOU REALLY ARE

You see there are all types of wickedness in the world, that you can’t necessarily get away from, your home is supposed to be the one environment that stands for who you are. What you like, what you watch, what you listen to, what you talk about on the internet is who you really are. Even the way you represent yourself in the worlds

I UNDERSTAND

meontrial — Mon, 07 Sep 2009 02:07:38 +0000

Thanks to a couple of good friends (Bro. Tom and Jonathan), I have started to look at the incredible things in life I have, but don’t deserve, as opposed to things I feel I deserve but don’t have. You know I got so caught up in what I want and felt deserving of; I neglected to see the things I have, but am very undeserving of. You know, I have a LOVING CHURCH FAMILY, people that I have wronged to the fullest degree, yet am deeply loved, a love I can’t quite understand, but am very grateful for. A PASTOR, one that took the time to reach me, when the last thing I wanted was to be reached. I would purposely leave just to avoid him, and what did he do, kept after me, now I know it was the Lord that laid it on his heart, but yet a chasing I can’t quite understand and am deeply grateful for. MY FAMILY, WOW what can I say about them, my family should’ve turned their back on me years ago, because I’ll be the first to tell you, I had turned my back on them. But yet they loved me, unconditionally, again a love I do not understand. TOMORROW, not tomorrow in general, but all the tomorrows I’ve had, because once upon a time, I didn’t want today, and I’m very undeserving of the tomorrows I’ve been given. MY GIRLFRIEND, I have the most incredible, understanding, amazingly beautiful Christian girlfriend there is, sorry guys its true. I honestly don’t think there is a guy anywhere that deserves the girlfriend I have, yet she’s mine, a blessing I’ll never understand. Now, I say I don’t understand all these things, and I truly don’t, but I do know where they came from, they came from GOD, and neither you nor I will ever understand Him. You can try, I know that I have and that was wrong of me. But guess what He forgives me, a forgiveness I’ll never understand. I thank GOD for all that He has given me, and all that He will continue to give me, if all He ever gives me is tomorrow, I’m thankful. Once again, thanks for your time.

NEXT CHAPTER PLEASE!!!

meontrial — Sat, 05 Sep 2009 17:58:02 +0000

Now, I don’t want any readers to think, I’m any less religious, I most certainly am not, and I know God has something out there for me, and this just a storm. But can I be openly honest about the way I feel, without the criticism, I think not, but guess what, here I go. I’ve been looking for a job for a long while, 3 months maybe. Now, I have a family member, who gets fired from her job, and why does she get fired, for selling drugs at work. Well the day before she got fired, she told me about this well paying company that was hiring and told me to go put my application in. So I did, well due to the fact that she lost her job, so did she. On the phone she told me that maybe this was just God opening a door for her, so I questioned that with, what have you done for Him, that He would be so eager to do for you? Her response, I’ve been reading the Bible and praying for the last two days, now I can’t tell you what her intentions were, for wanting to start reading the Bible and praying, that’s not my place. But yesterday, when she called, telling me about how she got the job, your right I was a little stood back. I on the other hand, have been reading the Bible and praying all along, among a lot of other things. Yet I wasn’t offered the job, and this particular employer, doesn’t even know my background. So after two days of searching, she gets a better job, then the one she was fired from and me after 3 months, well I think we know.

Now, I’m 26 and my life is still an open book, waiting to be written. The thing is I have the paper, even have the words to be wrote, but can someone, anyone, give me a pencil to write with, or just let me borrow one at this point, I promise to give it back, or maybe even a rock, I’ll do it caveman style, whatever it takes. I’m at the juncture in my life, I’m beginning to know better as being stuck, now I never liked glue in school, the only thing that has changed is, I seem to be lying in it. I watch people evolve into their life, meaning I watch people take steps towards the person they will be. I see doors open for them, most walk through, some don’t, which makes no sense, your closing a door that has been locked to me. I know what I would do if that door opened, but that’s off the topic. I feel like I’m in the middle of time square, I can’t move, not one step, not one word, my only power is to watch everyone pass me by. At the moment, I’ m not asking to make 30,000 a year, all I want is opportunity, the same opportunity I see others getting. I want a chance, I guess when it comes down to it, I just want to feel like I’m worth something, not to you, not to anyone other then myself.

repercussions

meontrial — Tue, 01 Sep 2009 17:52:46 +0000

You know there is one thing I seem to be quickly understanding, no matter how far the distance you have traveled from you past, notice not how long, but how far, you will constantly face the consequences of your past decisions. Now, I understand who you were doesn’t make you who you are, but to the people that don’t know who you are, all they have to go by is who you were. I’m 26 years old, I have dreams, and I have goals I wish to obtain. One is settling down, creating a future family with my future wife. But I want to take care of my family and my wife, whomever that may be, but that requires a job, and not just any job, but a good job. One that is steady, good paying, insurance, and a job that has hours to be worked, without the fear of being laid off, which is happening a lot these days. Doesn’t seem like a whole lot to want, but it is a bit tougher for me then most. I went in for an interview the other day for a pretty decent job, drove an hour to get there, and after 5 minutes into the interview and one question, interview over. What was that question you might be wondering? Well, it was a question as simple as, what’s your social security number? Now it was very evident why they would want that, obviously they wanted to run a background check. It seems this question is about as far as I get with interviews these days. I understand I have some trust among society that needs to be redeveloped, and honestly can’t say I would hire myself, if the situation were reversed. I mean would you hire a convicted criminal that you knew nothing about, even if his convictions were not so recent. Discouraging to say the least, I guess I’m just patiently and willingly waiting for GOD to give me that one chance, to reprove myself. He’s the only one that can do it, so it is to Him I pray. I pray He soften the hearts of my interviewers. And I know He will, in His time, and when the job arrives at my doorstep that He placed there. I mean I can safely say, I don’t think Gods plan is for me to not have a job for the rest of my life. And is it possible that I could even lie when they ask me if I’ve ever been arrested, to my knowledge there’s not a whole lot that is still weighing my record down, so the answer is yes, I could lie. But if I have to lie to get a job, I don’t really think that’s the job God put there for me, I highly doubt, I will have to lie to get the job He wants me to have. So while I continue to search and diligently look, I also continue to pray, that this be the day, where someone might look past my record, and see the honestly that I lie before them, and give me the job I so earnestly need. While, I am discouraged about it, I know where my faith is and I know the power God has, so I don’t stress too much, but nevertheless still a battle, thanks for your time.

AMERICA CLAIMING CHRISTIANITY?

meontrial — Sat, 29 Aug 2009 08:01:42 +0000

I have recently been asked some questions, and as I got to thinking about them, I’ve made a decision to answer them through a blog. I’m hearing a lot of, America claims Christianity, so why is it that they are in much worse shape then secular countries? As I was beginning to wonder myself, I got to thinking what is it that Christianity stands for? And what is it America stands for? As I read the question again it hit me, Christianity isn’t a claim, Christianity is a faith, a trust, a belief, Christianity is a way of life. To be a Christian, you believe God died on a cross for your sins, you repent of your sins asking for forgiveness, you have faith our only way to Heaven is through Jesus Christ our savior. But that’s just the first step of being a Christian; you see being a Christian is a lifestyle, to be a Christian is to put God in full control of your entire life, to know everything is in His way and in His time. God gave us the Bible, which is better known as life’s manual for Christians, it tells you the Christian way to be, when handling a situation, what things are of the world, the way Christians should think, act, feel, everything, all the above is what goes into being a Christian. For example, and the people that know me best will laugh at the truth behind this, but I claim to be a basketball player. For what team you might be asking, well I don’t have one, when do you practice, I don’t, what times your game I want to come and watch, I don’t have games, other then the pickup games at my usual court. So how is it that I claim to be a basketball player, because I like the sport, but that doesn’t necessarily make me a basketball player now does it. You see that’s the problem with America, all we do is claim Christianity, but we are to self absorbed to actually be a Christian. So why is it, that same American that claimed to be a Christian, is on the corner selling drugs, or at the bar drinking beer, or on Wednesday night, Sunday morning and night instead of church, they choose work, and why do people work? For money. Now I know it takes money to live, and some of the below mentioned statements if you’ve read my comments on blogs will be redundant. But let’s not fall off the subject, so this same nation that claims Christianity, takes God out of schools, our churches are bare to say the least, and most have taken God out of their homes. But let’s look at the facts, prayer was taken out of schools in 1962, now I wish I could find a more updated site, but I’m sure this will prove my point. Since 1962 sexually transmitted diseases amongst teens jumped from 400, in 1962 to over 1200, by 1990. Pregnancies of unwed girls below the age of 15, at 1962 was 2,250 by 1990 it had increased to 26,000 under the age of 15, and if you look at the graphs only 1000 of them were live births, the others abortions. Pre-marital sex amongst teens at the age of 17, in 1962, 14 percent of teens in America and as of 1987, 51 percent, I’m sure that number is quite a bit higher these days. And you are more then welcome to see the graphs for yourself at http://heartofwisdom.com/blog/when-prayer-was-taken-out-of-school/. Now, they say we claim Christianity, but to anyone with common sense it’s evident what we claim is self pleasures. Anything and Everything that pleases the flesh, sex, drugs, alcohol, free will, and money. Which is my next topic.

The God America trust is money, don’t believe me, look at a bill, any bill, 1,5,10,20,50,100, or any piece of change, what’s it say on it, in GOD we trust, better known as in money we trust. Just think about it, why do people sell drugs? Money. Why do people steal? Because they want things and don’t have the money. Why do people do drugs? Because they aren’t satisfied with life, now ask them what would make life easier? Again money. You ever ask yourself why is it American children grow to be so rebellious these days, lack of leadership, they raise themselves, and why? Because mom and dad have two jobs a piece and are never home. But they could live very comfortably enough with their one job. But they would rather have a 60,000 dollar vehicle then a 30,000 dollar one, they would rather have a big screen TV, boats, expensive clothes, and leave their kids to raise their selves. What is it exactly they are teaching their kid by doing this, to worship the almighty dollar, that’s what it’s about isn’t it? So, does America claim Christianity? Yes. But I’m not to sure Christianity claims America. You know I wish we could go back to the times when America did in fact stand for Christianity, we are falling into more evil and worldly desires everyday, and God is the only one who can bring us from this. So if you claim to be a Christian, is that as far as it goes, are you just a claimer? Or do you live for God, do you try and be a testimony for Him through everyone you come across, I know I do. That doesn’t mean I’m perfect, I’m very far from it, everyone is, but I desire to be. I’m so thankful for the work God does in my life, and the places He has brought me from, and He can bring America back from the hole we’ve crawled into, but you have to have the desire. You have to put God first in your life, and if enough Christians do that, He will be first in America. Again thank you for your time and your comments are appreciated.

ME VS JUDGEMENT

meontrial — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 02:56:12 +0000

THE HUMAN:

The Battles you have overcome and the life you live now, make no difference, you are the decisions you’ve made. Your life of drugs and crime and all that came with it, is the very structure of who you are and that will not change, it can not change. It’s fine that you desire change, but it’s nothing more then a desire. An example, I have a field behind my house that consist of about 10 horses, and 1 goat. Now, obviously I can’t interpret the mind of the goat, but if you watch him closely, it is clear to see that he thinks he is a horse, he runs with the horses, eats with them, lies with them, everything. My point is while he thinks he’s a horse, he’s still a goat. Much like you, hanging around Christians, reading your Bible, doing devotions and constantly seeking the Lords will in prayer, you live a completely different life then your past, but the fact is your still an addict, your still a criminal, it won’t change.

It seems that your past will surely follow you, wherever it is GOD takes you. If you’ve read my past blogs, it’s comes as no surprise that for the longest time, drugs was a big battle in my life. It led me down a road of crime, a road of addiction, and a road of suffering, I could go on and on, but that is not what this blog is about. What this blog is about, is does who you were, make you who you will be? Am I that goat? I don’t want to be that same person I was for so long, I want to be different and I want people to notice a difference in me. I know I’ve made some mistakes, and I’ve repented and I feel like I’m a different person inside, so why do humans see me as the same person. Am I striving after something that can not be obtained. Am I falsely mistaken that people can live a different life, I mean people can change who they are, right? They have to be, if not then there is no hope. Because all humans are evil and sinners, and you can never have a clean heart in GOD,and that’s how it will always be, if this is true.

(THE VERDICT):

People, can not change who they are, however, they can change what they do. This might seem redundant, I assure you their not, while you might not egage in some of the activities you used to, your soul remains the same. While I don’t do drugs, or constantly break the law, unless you have GOD in your heart, your still full of the wickedness you always have been. You see, your soul can’t be empty, you either have GOD or the world. My point is while YOU can’t change who you are, GOD can change who you are. GOD can change anyone, anytime, or everyone at the same time, it’s all according to His will and His time. Here of late, I’ve been hearing that I can’t change, even GOD can’t change me, which I would understand from a non believer, unfortunately this isn’t the case. While, it hurts and truly cuts me to know thats what people think of me, especially some of my brothers and sisters in Christ, GOD reminds me, that He is all powerful. There is nothing that He can’t do. I am thankful that I have a loving and merciful GOD, and His wrath and judgement in which we all deserve death for our sins, won’t be as harsh as that in which we would judge others. Remember, if there is no hope that someone can change from their past, while my past might not be detail for detail like others, we all have the same past, born evil sinners on our way to hell, without the existence of change, we are all on our way to HELL…

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NO REGRETS

meontrial — Sat, 22 Aug 2009 05:48:13 +0000

You know this blog site exist for one reason and one reason only, it is my complete belief that GOD wanted me to share my past experiences, and my trials today as a testimony for Him, for what He can do in ones life. I understood I was putting my feelings in jeopardy, I actually thought about the consequences I am now having, if they were read by certain people, and almost didn’t write what I felt God wanted me to tell people. But I will never fear the judgment of humans over the blessings of GOD, not for one second. So I wrote them, detail for detail, now that these consequences have arrived, there are no regrets, I am my Fathers child, and my Father is GOD. You see GOD ask us to be testimonies for Him, to live our lives to do one thing, glorify GOD, through this site and many other things I involve myself with, I know I am. Knowing this, I also knew the devil would do everything he can to stop me and while the devil gets me down from time to time, honestly, he has me pretty down right now, but I will never and I mean never stop being a testimony for my GOD. Although, right now is probably, no it is the biggest battle I’ve had in I don’t know how long, I know for a fact I live my life to the will of GOD and because of that, I know this was part of His plan. I might not know why, or what the outcome might be, and as broken as I am right now, I have faith in my GOD. Faith to know He is in control, faith to know that He knows best, and not try and take that control, faith to accept the pain I have, and the aloneness I’m feeling, is what He wants me to have at this very moment. You know being a Christian and a servant for GOD, I know the devil will tempt you, and I know the closer you are with GOD, the more he will tempt you, and I’m glad He does, it’s when he doesn’t tempt you, you need to worry about. But what I’ve learned its how you handle those temptations that make you who you are, I chose to give mine to GOD, I will not be sorry for that, nor will I regret sharing the things I share. Being tempted doesn’t make you a bad person, being tempted doesn’t make you unworthy of someone’s respect, being tempted is a test of faith, I am so thankful I have GODS answer book, and I will continue to share my temptations, and how I gave them to GOD, and how He revealed Himself to me. I appreciate everyone’s time in visiting my site. GOD BLESS!!!